Bbye..

They say that when you close a door, another one opens..

In my case, im closing my doors to this blog.. yes, starting 2007 i wont be using xanga for my blogging.. il be using multiply for my blog and other stuff.. its at qmkat.multiply.com  feel free to add me up!=)

Im not just closing my doors to the blog..but i want to say goodbye to the negative memories that are in this blog.. well.. basically this blog carries a lot of memories that were not healthy for me in terms of growth as an individual.. it was basically two years of living in a shell..lost in itself.. using its shell as a cover up and a projection of whats really happening within.. using its hard shell as a projection that i am strong and an able person, like nothing can affect me.. but inside that hard shell there is a vulnerable, helpless and a lost me..

Actually its not just the blog.. but the phone messages as well.. yes, binura ko na yung mga dapat ibura.. heheh.. haayy.. kelangan naren tlaga eh.. life has to go on.. mashado na akong "in" sa experience ko for the past two years.. mshado ko naren binabad yung sarili ko sa ganun na situation.. and i believe my time is up naren.. tamang tama two years.. yun usually yung deadline ko.. well, hindi ko actually sinasadya.. pero it usually takes me 2 years or more para masarado ang mga dapat isarado sa buhay.. tagal.. rrr.. yeah nakakainis..

haay.. 2006.. yes.. we all have made new memories during the year.. it could be happy ones.. it could be gloomy ones.. some would consider this year the best  and some would consider this as one of the worst in their lives.. yeah some people would consider this year as grief.. for their love ones during the natural calamities of our country.. other people also "die" or gave up within because they believe that they have lost hope in themselves.. for some people, their lives would never be the same anymore.. scars have been made.. wounds that still havent heal within..

on the brighter side, the year 2006 may have brought other people happiness.. it also could be that this year, there were people who were able to experience something that they havent experienced before in their lives.. one experience could be as simple as a family who always had conflict but in the end they managed to have a blissful ending, a child who has tasted ice cream for the first time, a new home for a homeless family, etc..if you were lucky, you might even have met someone.. not just any person.. but someone who was able to see the goodness in you despite how you see yourself.. in fact, this person was able to give you life again.. it could be someone you have already known.. or someone whom you met within the year.. but really, what if you have met someone who was able to make it possible for you to be happy? a chance to be a better person.. an oppurtunity to see things differently and at the same time, making you grow as a person.. if you have met such a person, then lucky you are.. a gift from God that person is.. probably an angel in disguise.. i thank God for giving me one..

Despite the things that happened to us this year, whether good or bad, let us all hope that we learn the lessons during the year and hoping that we would not make the same mistakes again..

It has been a good year for me.. has its ups and downs yes.. but im looking forward to more of those in the year 2007..

mango float..hahah..=)

waw 2nd week na ng november.. heheh.. nararamdaman ko na yung aura ng christmas.. mas nararamdaman ko pag nasa mall.. they always play the christmas songs and all.. sometimes they play it too when i ride the mrt going to school every morning.. wala lang.. the first 2 weeks of november for me were somewhat "maluwag".. kaya ko ren nasabi yun kasi i get to have time pa to watch movies during weekdays.. which happens seldomly.. basta.. i dont usually watch.. hehe.. in fairness, im getting good grades.. natutuwa ako sa grade ko sa accounting.. hoping to get that 2.5 or higher sa coursecard day.. in comcalc, malalaman ko pa lang yung score tomorow for my latest quiz.. nlate nga ako nung araw na nagtake ako ng quiz eh.. hope i pass.. oh yeah.. it was my first time to cut classes this term.. and it was my major subject pa.. tsktsk.. ehh.. i "intentionally" didnt get up even when it was time for me to do so.. i dont know.. i just felt really groggy and really wanted the feeling of lying down and relaxing.. haha.. unreasonable yes i know.. irresponsible if you might add.. oh well.. hehe..

hmmm.. im going through my friendster right now, which i havent done for a long time.. yeah i still check friendster from time to time, but i dont really check out my friend's profiles, old friends, etc.. and most of the friends that i am looking at right now are my st paul friends.. high school friends rather.. wala lang..

kanina i was watching harry potter 4..  i actually started to reminisce about high school when it was the scene wherein they had to attend their ball.. hehehehe..awww.. when i saw the young couples entering the great hall, i began to think of my own grad ball back in high school.. hahahaha.. well.. i still remember my grad ball date.. now an atenean taking up management engineering.. unexpectedly saw him when i visited ateneo.. wala lang.. i knew i had fun during my grad ball.. he was cool to be with.. didnt really had an awkward moment.. actually the honors class of my batch knew him so they were like saying hi to him and all.. i wouldnt forget the time when my bandmates, tanya, maita, and maico performed in our grad ball.. that was one of the moments in high school i wouldnt forget.. heheh.. it was actually one of my wishful thinking scenes back then.. i wished that i could perform during our grad ball.. and make my date proud of me.. hahah..wala lang.. well.. i dont know.. actually i wasnt expecting that he would be my date.. wala lang.. had a good time.. pero..walalang.. everything was just great.. pero lam mu yun yung feeling deep inside na parang hindi ka masaya, na parang merun kang hinahanap.. bsta.. nothing much..just reminiscing here.. just looking back.. just evaluating myself.. heheheh..

kelangan ko na gumawa ng mango float.. at magpapasagot ako ng survey with my partner for engltwo.. grabe.. hehehe.. i missed making mango float.. i might make for the class..sabi ni miss oki lang daw.. hahah.. tska i have to think of a product for my sales talk speech.. actually nung nalaman ko na we were gona have a sales talk, parang naexcite ako..hahah.. ewan ko,, parang bigla ko lang navisualize sarili ko na im in front of the class, with all smiles and with all the confidence, and im persuading them to buy the product that i have.. heheheh.. wala lang.. just hope i would do better this time.. kelangan bumawi from my informative speech.. grabe.. gusto ko gumaling dito sa speech class.. pero hindrance yung proff.. and me of course.. not exactly me, but my perception.. bsta..

antok na ako.. blurry eyes.. eye contacts pala.. hehe.. grabe..

Friday im in.... the house and resting..=)

its a friday night.. and yes.. i am glad that i am home.. coz first of all, wala na akong midterms!! yes!! yebah..=) hehehe.. wala lang.. secondly, gusto ko naren talaga muna magpahinga.. promise.. ndi ako magoorient 2 or lasaret bukas.. pero il be attending something else sa st francis square kasama si jarra and kapatid.. heheh.. wala lang.. 2.5 ako sa midterms ko in comcalc yes! hehehe! sobrang first time yan in my stay in college na magka 80+ na grade sa midterms.. calculus pa.. hehehehe.. wala lang.. had my informative speech kanina.. it didnt turn out the way i imagined and wanted it to be.. i had a good outline already in my mind.. the examples.. i was giving a speech pala about direct selling.. haay.. i feel bad because i wasnt able to do good.. rrr.. pero tapus na yun.. babawi nalang ako sa sales talk..sana magawa ko yun.. i need a product pala.. something new.. hehe.. wala lang.. i attended seeker's hour kanina sa chapel.. the topic was about spirituality and commercialism.. the speaker was francis kong.. hes good actually.. has a good voice.. hehe.. the content of his talk was enlightening.. pero parang it wasnt enough.. parang may kulang.. yeah sure i paid attention for 1 full hour about how the media has influenced our society in terms of our mindset and our perceptions in life.. he did made sense.. pero wala lang.. hehe..

haayy.. my start of the week wasnt actually good.. well.. palibhasa midterms.. yeah.. pero wala lang.. inside, im filled with anxiety and fear.. the source? well.. maraming factors eh.. pero friday seems to be a good ending of the week.. thank God for that grace..

kanina wen i was walking home to the condo, parang nagkaroon ako ng wishful thinking moment.. na sana, i would be someone who would inspire people to make their lives more meaningful.. ewan ko.. it was something like that.. maybe i wished na sana i would be like the speaker kanina, who inspires people and all.. pero oki lang sa akin kahit anung setting.. whether it be like a speech or kahit sa individual.. wala lang.. just a thought lang..

im happy because im home.. hehe.. yeah sure i could be out.. could be in the san mig october fest thing coz mega is like 5 minutes away from my place.. and right now they are playing really hard under the rain.. cool nga eh.. the drummer's making a drum solo right now!!! hehehe!! wana watch! hehe.. walalang.. i duno wat band is that.. hehe.. or, i could actually be in a gig right now performing with fahrenheit.. hehe.. wala lang.. or i could be in the jema party thing.. meeting new people.. making new friends and new connections.. yeah, i could be in one of those.. but i know that, i wont actually be happy.. pero now that im at home, i could say that i am happy because im at home..=) thank God for that..=)

right now im waiting for kapatid to finish her movie marathon of friends.. eheheh.. after that its my turn yey yey..=) hihihi.. wala lang..

anyway.. while waiting.. i will play with my guitar again.. and try to master the piece "moonriver"..hehehe..

grabe.. malapit na matapus ang october.. heheheh.. its funny.. the last time i wrote an entry here, i was saying that its already october.. hehe.. october.. october fest.. haha.. wala lang.. lots of things happend for the last two weeks.. im actually reflecting on the things that happend to me recently..

wala lang.. lots of things are running in my mind right now.. wen i look back on how i was before, i know deep down, that there was change in me.. improvement.. i feel more wise and open compared to how i was before during high school and first year college.. i believe that this is the way that it should be.. sabi nga ni dadi eh.. tumatanda ka na.. heheh..

but there is still much to learn..

hmmm.. nakita ko sa email ko, merung FTK.. For The Kids.. heheheheh.. shucks.. gusto ko magregister.. i like i like.. its gona be on oct 28.. sports plaza.. 10am-2pm.. not hassle to my schedule.. gusto ko tlga promise.. puntahan ko nga sa monday sa sj.. hehehehh.. yey.. gusto ko makalaro mga kids yiiiii

kelangan ko na matulog.. hehe.. mag aattend pa ako ng mass tomorow morning.. kelangan magdasal.. i have to study for my midterms.. comcalc and accounting.. tas gona prepare my speech to inform which i have to present on friday.. gota fix my stuff for engltwo..the research paper..salamat..